Being Vulnerable During Health Journey 🙌
Another week of several appointments almost finished. Along with unexpected appointments and so much different blood work. Just finished another appointment and more bloodwork. 😫
There is SO MUCH going on and my head is spinning. Glad to be back home . I'm still dehydrated but have a good routine to keep me some what stable and comfortable. (Trying to stay out of hospital)
The next 4 weeks i have several follow-ups, new appointments, tests/blood work . This is what is the hardest besides each day we don't know what "jackie" it is hahahah . ( Niagra falls vomiting, dehydrated, sugar too high or too low, flareups etc..you get the point ) 🤣
It's just like my gadgets of insulinpump, dexcom and gazillion apps . I'll name them sometime 🤣
Tarl and I have fun. We know this is hard but we do keep humor, enjoy life and don't just sit around. Life's to be enjoyed. Yes, we rather travel, visit family and friends we've been trying since being married almost 3 years ago but crap happens ..Life happens.. Unforseen trials, challenges etc.. So, you make the best of it. Always have and always will. 💜
It's just tough going through all this, especially since in my life I've had 12 surgeries and numerous testing etc but its different and difficult because now in these last few months and almost 40 in 2 months, soooo many more specialists have been added, more blood work testing/procedures or exams that I've never experienced or some I don't want too ever again 🤣🤣🤣 Don't ask 🤣🤣🤣
Anyways. Glad I could see Tarl on his lunch break today and everyday. * he's blessed to work from home, and just so you know we take our priorities serious, it be fun if we could just hang out and play or create but Tarl is so devoted and hardworking and blessed to have insurance and his job. He works so hard. We're truly blessed.
I take my school and other things serious . Thats life, yes you have to " be an adult" and have disipline. Which we both have always been responsible, dedicated, disiplined and worked, along with keeping our priorities straight. ( One of the many things that attracted us to each other) along with our working on our passions,talents, dreams or creative projects.
I'm saying all of this because it's important. Important for you to accept things in your life. To be vulnerable. Process. Let yourself heal, overcome and learn in YOUR WAY and YOUR TIME. We all need to love, accept, listen, have empathy and compassion for each other.
I used to be the suck it up or as my awesome young woman leader growing up would say "Get over it "🤣🤣 which I still love..Just sometimes situations , like mine and yes, IT'S SERIOUS and very important.. life long and not easy fix. "Get over it " doesn't help, trust me I wish it did lol🤣🤣
There are many issues and underlying causes..some genetic, some just because and some still figuring out. I'm just that complicated and special my doctors say 🤣🤣
So, yes we're feeling. I cry . I get mad. I get sad. I feel helpless at times or very uncomfortable or mostly I'm happy and funny , sweet and caring..For the most part 😄
I know the now and future picture. I reassure myself, my husband and others that just because life sucks alot at times, and living through hell, you don't always have to see the "good" or forget your suffering, feelings. Challenges, and not be vulnerable.
You don't always have to look at "could be worse" someone is worse off, and all those other motivated speeches or examples.. TRUST ME I KNOW, I am one of those..but I am also human. And I'm on a mind, body and soul healing which has to be done in every part of me for however long it takes, apparently as Tarl says in the preexistence before coming to earth , I must have chosen at my "trial buffet " little bit of everything 🤣🤣
I love my marriage. I love my life. I love I'm closer to graduating. I love the gospel, all of you and family, friends, strangers, travel, music, photography, dance, singing, writing, my small shop business, service, humor, helping others etc...
Yes, I'm grateful. I feel. I suffer. This is hard. Really hard. Days, nights, weeks, months, years.. so much going on, it's overwhelming.. but I cope because I am resilient with amazing faith, a strong testimony of the gospel, an incredible, fun, amazing marriage with Tarl, wonderful support group, blessings in all circumstances, talents, determination, drive, respect and so much more.
I'm learning and growing. So I hope y"all can too. Maybe something resonates with you . Just take time to rest, relax, take a moment and reevaluate yourself, relationships, and etc..See what you can do to help find yourself, better yourself, embrace your life situations, relationships and how to overcome and cope during your own journey.
Lots of love to you all. Just a special message I felt inspired to share. * why my name and business is Jackie Inspires 💜😄🙌✨️
Back to school,marriage, life of enduring and living it up. Blessed and grateful in all circumstances, being vulnerable and loving and growing within myself.
School all weekend and preparing for finals and the next 4 weeks of "ROLLERCOASTER MEDICAL & SPA TREATMENT FUN" 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Keep shining ✨️ Be inspired
~Jackie Inspires ~
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