Healing Journey Continued.
HEAVENLY MOTHER PAINTING WITH JESUS CHRIST
-DEL PARSON ARTIST
Happy Easter Everyone.. if you know Me well you'd know how this particular art piece speaks to me. Tarl and I have a copy hanging on our wall. Its extremely beautiful, sacred and Del Parson created it perfectly.
As much as I desire to have my own mother, father, Heavenly Parents and our Savior hold me, particularly in my life right now, sadly it's not that easy. My parents live out of state. Our Heavenly Parents and Savior are not in "eye sight" but I have my amazing husband Tarl who physically can hold me, if my body let's him.
Reason why I say this is not just for "Easter" but I'm always keeping my faith even if God thinks I can keep handling more..my spiritual & emotional journey is strong . But my physical strength is not.
As our Savior he experienced times Especially such as the "Easter season " excruciating suffering in so many different ways. He was strengthened to carry out his mission which would be everlasting to every soul throughout the universe or eternity. Always growing love and ultimately the most difficult, unselfish, painful, loving, sacrificing decision ever.
Jesus Christ knows each of us and how we feel. Our suffering. These next words are how I feel and how I understand and what I testify in my own life. If they bring comfort or resonates with you, then that truly is the best thing I can do for you as showing I love, care, support, inspire, uplift and showing my christ like love, especially of my own testimony of the resurrection of our Savior Jesus Christ.
My journey in life and especially now since I have been born has seen the most beautiful of times and the most excruciating hell. You'll have to read my biography to know my full-version story lol..until then I'm inspired and impressed to speak concerning now..
No amount of words through singing, writing, music or therapy, discussions with whomever can exactly explain or express the agonizing pain, discomfort I am experiencing especially in my bones, muscles, nerves, organs and skin. No amount of medicines ,therapy, procedures, surgeries, rest, yoga, meditation or any other form can even touch it .
I literally have suffered greatly in my own life and I am to the point that I'm suffering in so many ways that the only thing I can do is see the blessings among all my enduring challenges. My list of symptoms, medicines, doctors, diagnoses and other things will not help anyone ,even myself or my amazing husband, family, and friends understand what I am going through. It's impossible and why I'm not listing everything because it's irrelevant and not helpful. Plus it reminds me how exhausting the next few weeks of appointments are lol.
But........OUR SAVIOR LIVES. HE KNOWS. Jesus has always been and forever will be my strength, my heart, my way, my healing, my listener, my best friend, guide, companion, spirit, judge, brother, and so much more. He paid the price on the cross. Jesus suffered for me(and all of you) but for me explaining he suffered, he bled, he brused, he broke, he cried, he suffered agonizing pain inside and out for various reasons, many times, enduring harsh words, abuse of many forms, neglect, gossip, hatred etc countless times to the end..
And you know what? HE FREAKING FORGAVE EVERYONE....AS I FORGAVE ALL THAT HAS HURT ME. Now I must forgive my body in many forms and continue my inspiring heart of love, empathy, sympathy, kindness, service, talents in music, art, patience, understanding, uplifting, and move toward one step at a time. One appointment, one test, one medicine, one trial and error, one class for school, hand in hand with Tarl.
Holding each and everyone of you in my life or those I haven't met to be reminded YOU'RE AMAZING AND IMPORTANT. YOU'RE SUFFERING, TEARS, SACRIFICES, STRUGGLES, EMOTIONS, VULNERABILITY, FAITH, TRIALS, ENDURING, VOICE, TALENTS, PASSIONS, CHALLENGES AND ALL ELSE MATTERS.
Why?? BECAUSE I MATTER. What I am personally going through and striving to become and no amount of pain, tears, suffering, challenges in physical, emotional, spiritual or financial difficulties stops me from going because HE LIVES. OUR SAVIOR. He is the one guiding me and my husband and all medical team and those in my life. I see his miracles. I feel his presence. I strengthend my faith.
As much hell and pain and suffering and all the "unknowns" of results, tests, diagnoses, healing, bills being paid or tuition or no amount of big or small trials, life is BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE MY LIFE. I love the beauty of the earth, nature, my marriage, family, friends, learning, growing, service, gospel, truth, light, talents .
Because of Him. Because of Jesus Christ I know one day I will be healed and resurrected and life will be so more beautiful and miraculous than ever before because of the promise our Savior and Heavenly Parents have made. It's up to me ..I can endure. I can endure it well. I can be healed. I can keep going. I am loved. I am grateful. I am blessed
I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND A SISTER OF AN AMAZING KING. THROUGH JESUS CHRIST ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
I bare this testimony and the truthfulness and through my own power and holding strong to the gospel and our Savior Jesus Christ that he is the way . Just got to hang on little bit longer.
Love each of you. Enjoy each day you are blessed with. Be more vulnerable. Show more self-care and love. Know you're capable
Keep shining ✨️ Be inspired ✨️
~Jackie Inspires ~