jackieinspires
Hello Beautiful Souls ~
Life is sure busy! Between Tarl and his busy work, projects, and unpacking the last bit in our home, and Tarl and I both having nasty colds for over a week now, We needed to get out in the sunshine and see the beautiful state of Utah we're blessed to live in.
We've been in our beautiful townhome for a month now and love it. Above is a picture I took of Pine Mountain here in Washington/St. George Utah where we live. Isn't it beautiful?
I've been busy with school and health appointments. Also putting in a lot of job applications as I graduate in Spring 2024 with my Family Science degree. So, why wait? when I can enjoy the numerous interviews, applications, and denials hahaha. It's all part of the process. I may be 40 but I got quite a bit of years left and want a career.
I love that Tarl and I can make sure we make time for ourselves together. Whether it's a drive, a walk, exploring, creating, or reading next to each other. Life can get busy but being with those you love is so important. MAKE TIME~ Even if you don't have a special someone, I understand, we've all been there but make time with someone or those you love dear.
We've learned a lot through my horrible sickness *you can read previous blog posts to understand that part. It was very hard on both of us and very scary. I literally thought it was the end of me. With a lot of prayers, determination, support, love, the move, amazing specialists, and constant work, I am better and stable. My insulin pump is doing good. My gastroparesis is stable. My emotional and spiritual health is amazing.
Having my best friend and my love by my side and me by his side made life even more beautiful, just like looking outside and seeing the beautiful desert, mountains, dirt, plants and so much more. God makes beautiful things. Yes, we have challenges but despite how ''ugly'' it can be, at the end of the challenge or trial, it's actually quite an amazing and beautiful destination.
I'm not saying we're totally 100 percent better but we are 100 percent sure how blessed we are to have each other. No matter how many bumps in the road or trials we have faced, we really do stop and appreciate the beautiful trials and challenges we have overcome.
There's no going back. There's no different direction you can choose once you choose a path, but there is so much beautiful scenery along the way and that is with each other too. The growth, determination, learning, growing, faith-building, and just in awe of how incredibly blessed we are. So what does this tell you? Don't give up. Don't just stay in a funk and not live. Don't let your challenges and trials stop you from living.
No amount of sickness and disasters and the way you feel should stop you from living. It's a time for you personally to see how you can live and learn during those times and have faith in every step you take. No matter how big or small that step is, YOU ARE DOING IT. YOU CHOOSE. Each of us has our free agency. We choose whether to live or just ride out the storms missing beautiful moments.
I am choosing one day at a time. No matter how I feel. No matter how busy life can be. Enjoying my life with Tarl. Enjoying the outside. Enjoying the sun on my face. Enjoying the appointments, my ups and downs. I am enjoying really researching, pondering, praying, and consulting for the right career for me. Doesn't matter it's later in my life, because I am doing it. Doesn't matter if you are doing something later, it's you're doing it.
Just take one day at a time. I know you hear it a lot or compare yourself with others. That's fine. I'm not going to tell you how to live your life. I'm just putting this out there that each day is a new opportunity whether each of us is blessed to see it or not. No matter how hard it is or easy it may be.
See the sunshine and the beautiful scenery for the day. Worry about tomorrow later. One step. One choice. Know how much you are worth it and not forgotten. God created you. He knows before you know what will happen. You are given this chance and life now and we may not understand why but that's okay. We're given so much joy, blessings, knowledge, skills, opportunities, passions, talents, and each other to expand our days.
I am just blessed. I am blessed I can choose to stop and just soak in the beautiful moments with Tarl. No matter how hard things get or how busy, I choose. That's what life is about. You choose. Your free agency. I choose Life :) I choose the good, bad, and ugly and see the beautiful blessings.
Keep shining ~ Be Inspired ~
~Jackie Inspires~
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jackieinspires
Hello beautiful souls 💜
Just been working on my health ,enjoying my time with my husband Tarl and working on school . 18 credits is alot. I'm doing it though. :)
I've been trying to figure how to write this post for the last few weeks and decided to go with it. This is me . First picture is Senior in high school 2001. I was 17 years old. 3 weeks from graduating 🎓 I didn't make it..
I have always had low self-esteem in school growing up. Been bullied, beaten up, sexually harrased and much more over the years. I look at this picture and think Wow. I'm beautiful. I would make friends with whoever and be there no matter what. My heart has always been big. I would Help anyway I can . Most of all I thought, I was pretty enough to be asked to Dances or even the prom..Well back then I didn't think so, neither did others.
I fell "inlove" so I thought and got married at 18. 3 weeks before graduating I bailed out of a car and I thought it was going to blow up and emergency break was pulled all way out and brakes went to the floor. I never seen the car afterwards but I was laying in the middle of the highway . Story for another time.
2001 - no graduation and got married 18
2006- went and got my Ged after a couple years of divorcing my then husband.
I then became a Certified Nurses student and worked and endured many challenges.
I never got to walk the stage or wear cap and gown or celebrated me. But I kept going and didn't care how old I was. Or what I went through , I was going to make my dreams come true. One at a time.
Fast forward to 2016 when I was remarried and was a step mom. I worked and I did a program for my church which I could get 15 credits towards college degree. Byu-pathway.
During this time I've dealt with horrible people, going through divorce, and so much more. ( another story sometime)
I finished my pathway. But due to my sickness with diabetes and otherthings I didn't celebrate and missed the party .
Now it's 2023 where I continued to finish school and I'm an online student working on Family Science degree. I've endured and overcame so much physically, spiritually, financially, and emotionally. I am now 39 and alive, happy , blessed and I overcame divorces, moves, had surgeries, and so much more.
I am finally remarried to an amazing man and since 2 years ago when we got married I was able to not work so I could finish this dream of graduating. The 2nd picture is me now. It's literally from 2001 to 2023 of all the obstacles and dealing with abuse, bullying, financial, divorces, health, really low times and more, I didn't give up.
I am a senior at 39 doing my spring semester in 2023 and then will have last semester of school for summer 2023 . I will be 40 when I graduate Summer 2023 and walk the stage in May 2023. WALK THE STAGE. Wear a gown and a hat and hear my name called. Hello ? This is huge... Something I haven't experienced. To celebrate with my husband , my biggest supporters.. No matter how hard it is now, I'm doing it. So can YOU. Whatever you want or desire or think you can't, because you can 💜
I have many supporters and also many battles. I know that health, relationships, confidence, trials and other things haven't stopped me. It's made me want to be even better and all the tears, suffering, pain and etc I've endured has gotten me here and it's worth it because I've loved myself even more .
My faith and my testimony and knowing God and our Savior has been there always and protected me I'm forever grateful. When I was at my lowest or suffering so much, I knew that I was loved and given strength..
This is just little piece of my story and small victories. All I want you to know is DON'T YOU GIVE UP. YOU KEEP FIGHTING AND LOVING YOURSELF. You find a way to make your dreams and desires come true. A way to leave where you need to get out and give yourself a better chance and be safe. Knowing in your heart you're enough and amazing and worth it. Celebrate even those small victories because the bigger ones coming. Love yourself through it all.
This is just a simple version . There's so much more and emotion and pain and hurt and challenges that I had to go through to get here, but I am here.
I'm so proud of myself. I'm doing all I can to get to that stage and walk it and graduate and experience what I never have before . And then hopefully if all finances go well I want my husband and I to celebrate and go to Disney World for my 40th Birthday to celebrate me and us and accomplishing of getting my Family Science degree.
Make those dreams. You stand up and be proud no matter the tears or challenges you face and go get it . You matter. We got this.
Lots of love
Keep shining ✨️ Be inspired ✨️
~Jackie Inspires ~
jackieinspires
Hello Beautiful Souls 😍
Hope this finds you well . Know you're pretty amazing and PRICELESS. Don't be so hard on yourselves. Know You're Enough.
I am still around but working on my last 2 semesters. 18 credits and 5 classes now ( Spring semester) then it goes straight to Summer semester of 5 classes and internship. I'm so proud of myself for sticking to it. More excited to celebrate accomplishments of graduating and I will be the Big 40 . So exciting. Huge goal.
It's tough . Yes, I started later. We all make goals and sometimes make choices that weren't good or things happen. We just need to remember to give ourself love and care and not beat ourself up. I am learning this daily and acting on it.
Tarl working hard with work and his projects and we're enjoying the time we have between school and his work . Being married little over 2 years and supporting one another , helping us heal from previous nasty divorces and enjoying our journey together in all circumstances. We love it. We love seeing each other blossom in dreams and passions and making goals.
So, I want you to know that we want the same for you. Here's some little advice and inspiration for you as I get ready for big school day . Also know I'll keep blogging and we're still open to sales on little gift shop . Just school is a big goal to knock off.
As I finish college and look forward to the future, I'm reminded of all the amazing opportunities that life has to offer. I know that I still have so much to learn and so much to experience, and I'm excited to take on new challenges.
One thing that I'm particularly passionate about is helping others. I know that there are so many people in the world who need a little extra support, and I want to do my part to make a difference. Whether it's volunteering at a local charity, or simply being there for a friend in need, I know that every small act of kindness can make a big impact.
I also want to remind myself and others that age is just a number. We are never too old to learn new things, to try new things, to make new friends and to make a difference. Life is short and we should embrace every opportunity to live it to the fullest.
So here's to finishing college, and to all the amazing adventures that lie ahead. Let's make the most of our time here and make a difference in the world, one step at a time.
Keep shining ✨️ Be inspired ✨️
~Jackie Inspires ~
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