Highschool Senior then ( 2001) & College Senior now 2023
Hello beautiful souls 💜
Just been working on my health ,enjoying my time with my husband Tarl and working on school . 18 credits is alot. I'm doing it though. :)
I've been trying to figure how to write this post for the last few weeks and decided to go with it. This is me . First picture is Senior in high school 2001. I was 17 years old. 3 weeks from graduating 🎓 I didn't make it..
I have always had low self-esteem in school growing up. Been bullied, beaten up, sexually harrased and much more over the years. I look at this picture and think Wow. I'm beautiful. I would make friends with whoever and be there no matter what. My heart has always been big. I would Help anyway I can . Most of all I thought, I was pretty enough to be asked to Dances or even the prom..Well back then I didn't think so, neither did others.
I fell "inlove" so I thought and got married at 18. 3 weeks before graduating I bailed out of a car and I thought it was going to blow up and emergency break was pulled all way out and brakes went to the floor. I never seen the car afterwards but I was laying in the middle of the highway . Story for another time.
2001 - no graduation and got married 18
2006- went and got my Ged after a couple years of divorcing my then husband.
I then became a Certified Nurses student and worked and endured many challenges.
I never got to walk the stage or wear cap and gown or celebrated me. But I kept going and didn't care how old I was. Or what I went through , I was going to make my dreams come true. One at a time.
Fast forward to 2016 when I was remarried and was a step mom. I worked and I did a program for my church which I could get 15 credits towards college degree. Byu-pathway.
During this time I've dealt with horrible people, going through divorce, and so much more. ( another story sometime)
I finished my pathway. But due to my sickness with diabetes and otherthings I didn't celebrate and missed the party .
Now it's 2023 where I continued to finish school and I'm an online student working on Family Science degree. I've endured and overcame so much physically, spiritually, financially, and emotionally. I am now 39 and alive, happy , blessed and I overcame divorces, moves, had surgeries, and so much more.
I am finally remarried to an amazing man and since 2 years ago when we got married I was able to not work so I could finish this dream of graduating. The 2nd picture is me now. It's literally from 2001 to 2023 of all the obstacles and dealing with abuse, bullying, financial, divorces, health, really low times and more, I didn't give up.
I am a senior at 39 doing my spring semester in 2023 and then will have last semester of school for summer 2023 . I will be 40 when I graduate Summer 2023 and walk the stage in May 2023. WALK THE STAGE. Wear a gown and a hat and hear my name called. Hello ? This is huge... Something I haven't experienced. To celebrate with my husband , my biggest supporters.. No matter how hard it is now, I'm doing it. So can YOU. Whatever you want or desire or think you can't, because you can 💜
I have many supporters and also many battles. I know that health, relationships, confidence, trials and other things haven't stopped me. It's made me want to be even better and all the tears, suffering, pain and etc I've endured has gotten me here and it's worth it because I've loved myself even more .
My faith and my testimony and knowing God and our Savior has been there always and protected me I'm forever grateful. When I was at my lowest or suffering so much, I knew that I was loved and given strength..
This is just little piece of my story and small victories. All I want you to know is DON'T YOU GIVE UP. YOU KEEP FIGHTING AND LOVING YOURSELF. You find a way to make your dreams and desires come true. A way to leave where you need to get out and give yourself a better chance and be safe. Knowing in your heart you're enough and amazing and worth it. Celebrate even those small victories because the bigger ones coming. Love yourself through it all.
This is just a simple version . There's so much more and emotion and pain and hurt and challenges that I had to go through to get here, but I am here.
I'm so proud of myself. I'm doing all I can to get to that stage and walk it and graduate and experience what I never have before . And then hopefully if all finances go well I want my husband and I to celebrate and go to Disney World for my 40th Birthday to celebrate me and us and accomplishing of getting my Family Science degree.
Make those dreams. You stand up and be proud no matter the tears or challenges you face and go get it . You matter. We got this.
Lots of love
Keep shining ✨️ Be inspired ✨️
~Jackie Inspires ~